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I don’t feel small anymore and I do at the same time. I’m a little under 5′2″, but over 5′1″ so I say I’m the taller of the two. I think I quit feeling small in 1996. I can look back at pictures and see that in 1996, yes, I’m still small.

When I graduated high school, I weighed 96 pounds. I wasn’t wearing a ‘tiny’ size because I still had junk in the trunk, but I was wearing a size considerably smaller than I am now.

In school, I always felt small. I was usually the smallest kid in the class until I got to jr. high or so, then other kids were about the same size. I was so small that in the 5th grade (stop me if you’ve heard this story before) that the teacher came outside and pulled me in from recess….what in the world would make my teacher take me inside? I didn’t do anything wrong! Why am I being sent in?

We go into the classroom, and there is the janitor. What’s he doing here? Will someone please tell me why I have to skip recess?? Gina, stand over here by the wall and reach up like this.

Um…okay…
No, not like that, like you are hanging up your coat.
Roll your eyes here. They brought me inside to see how high to hang the new coat racks. Oh yeah, baby. You now know the measuring tape of all measuring tapes. Me. I was the shortest one in the class, so I had to go inside so the janitor could know how high to hang the coat racks.

At least I could reach them, I guess.

Anyway, I grew an inch after I turned 18. An inch! When you are only 5.34 high, an inch feels like a foot! Well….maybe not. But the point is I grew after I wasn’t ’suppose’ to anymore.

My freshman year of college I worked in the school cafeteria and yes, gained the freshman 20. So I went up to a whopping 115. Ohhh scarry! I’d love to weigh that now!

I went along and gained a few more pounds so that I had a steady weight of 124 pounds for a while no matter what I ate. And that was great because I could eat a lot. We are talking appetizer, salad, plate, and dessert with mixed drink from some huge portion place like Olive Garden or Red Lobster. I think those type of restaurants were the first to take American portions out of control, the rest followed suit a few years later.

Then my metabolism slowed down. Incredibly. I didn’t work an ‘active’ job anymore. I was a sitter. Then I had two kids. (I like to pretend that the weight gain can be blamed on the kids, but I know it began before that so I’ve really got to stop blaming them)

Anyway, I don’t like what I weigh now. At. All. I don’t feel so small anymore when I get dressed. But if I’m in comfy clothes like pajamas, or floating in the water…I still feel small… I still feel like me.